I looked
back at some of the old blog posts I wrote about losing weight.
I'd forgotten some of the reasons I wanted to diet in the first place so it's
nice to look back and read through what I was thinking at that time.
Here is what I wrote all those years ago. http://wonkywatt.blogspot.com/2012/06/dieting.html
I started that post by talking about my trigger points, that thing that makes someone want to lose weight and change their life for good. Everyone has a trigger and I had many. I was 30, fat and miserable and I didn't want to be 31, still fat and still miserable.
I looked back at that old blog post and I've picked up on a few points.
Now I'm a size 10/12 and I can't tell you how good it feels. I had several trips to the charity shop to ditch the old me and endless shopping sprees to buy new, smaller sizes. When you lose a lot of weight, like I did, you go through lots of different sizes and this can be expensive. I never minded buying new clothes, even if they did only fit me for a few months. You learn to be a bit of a fashionista, if it's too big, stick a chunky belt on and it'll be alright etc. etc.
I still think this is important. Even though I got to a healthy weight I'm still careful about what I eat. When I've overindulged, on a holiday or at Christmas, then I use small, tiny goals to get back to where I want to be.
Well I did lose that half a lb to get to my 10% and a whole lot more. I actually lost 89lbs altogether. I've tried to lift weights that are about a quarter of what I lost and I can't pick them up off the ground. It's quite hard to imagine how I carried that weight around with me. I've no idea how I did it.
I still believe this too, if you feel good about yourself then it shows in the way you hold yourself. The more I lost the more confident I became.
Well I did really want to do it and, and times, it was bloody hard work.
It took me a long time, life, several operations, and a house move got in the way, but I didn't let it beat me. I have to watch what I eat all the time and I don't think I'll ever stop thinking about it. The hardest part now is keeping the weight off. I'm still a fat girl inside and I don't think that will ever go away. The important thing is that I did it and I'm never going back to that person again.
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